missing my baby.......

So my parents came up to have a quick visit on their way for some business and they stayed only one day. but it happened to be the perfect time because I was having my baby shower on saturday. So it was great to have them here for that. but in the sper of the moment they decided to take Maddux with them back to Idaho for a bit. The baby shower went great and I will have pictures up as soon as my mom makes me a copy of them. haha I thought them taking Maddy would be a great idea cuz he would have so much fun. And I am unable to take him back for a visit before the baby is born, but I am now realizing that it is so hard to be without him. I have only been without him once before like this and it was for our honeymoon. So I am missing him like crazy. I know that every mother out there has those days where they think when they are packing the car to go somewhere and they have to get everything ready,( snacks, juice, toy, stroller, and whatever else) that it is a pain in the butt and how easy it would be to just get it done without all that. but that is what we live for. at least I know I do. My every moment surrounds him and what he does. so not having him here is really weird. The house is so quiet and pretty clean. no toys to pick up. I thought it would be great to have a chance before Bella comes to get everything organized but I am now thinking that I still could have done it with him. and those everyday things that annoy me or the hard days that bug me are not so bad. and I would rather have those days then be without him. I love my lil man and I am so lonely without him. I love being a mother and wouldn't trade it for the world. It makes me so thankful that I have a great little boy that is so smart and adorable. I cant wait until he comes home and I can kiss his cute lil lips and give him a huge hug. I am so thankful..... and very blessed.......